I Treated Her Badly and I Don’t Think that She Has Forgiven Me, What Should I Do?

I met a girl when I was in my third year in the university and she was so caring and understanding which made me to immediately develop affection for her.

I respect this girl a lot because she did not make things difficult for me when I asked her out. We dated for about six months before she fell very ill and was admitted to a hospital.

I became very close to her close friends who came to tell me that my girl was on admission at the hospital. I do not know what came over me then, but I must confess that I never one day went to see her in the hospital. I only told her friends I will be coming. After a while she was discharged but could not be attending classes as she was still recuperating. Her friends again came to tell methat  she was at home and very frail and wanted to see me.

Still yet I did not go to her and after then I lost contact with her. I just graduated last year and lately I was seriously thinking of this girl again and my conscience was riddled with guilt. I made a lot of attempt to find this girl and finally tracked her down and contact her on the internet.

I begged for her forgiveness and she said that she has already forgiven me but we can never be together again. She refused to give me her number and has blocked me from her chat.

Just two weeks ago I learnt from one of her friends that she was already engaged to marry and again I started feeling guilty because something in me kept telling me that this girl has not completely forgiven me.

Please help me and advise me on what to do because my problem now is how to secure her genuine forgiveness even if she does not want me any more. I have gone to her house and her father a retired soldier threatened to set the dogs on me so I could not see her.

I need this girls forgiveness because I know that nemesis is real. I am afraid of the repercussion of my actions, so that it won’t affect me or mine in the future. I am truly remorse now over the way I treated her, but I am ready to make ammends now no matter what it would cost me. Please what do I do, I am distressed as I no longer concentrate on anything I am doing again.